It is truly amazing, from my perspective. (And our God just loves to amaze us, doesn't He?)
I write this blog much like a write in my journal: in the moment, largely uncensored, and honest. It's not polished writing, and something I thought was profound one day I then realize was completely ridiculous the next day. Thanks for reading anyway :)
So, "Hoard to Soar?" I felt not long ago that I had to hoard now to soar later. Hoard my time, my money, my resources, my effort: it was all concentrated on one thing: earn college. Then, after I had accomplished that, I would be free to soar.
...how much more wrong could I get?
One, God's timing is perfect. I am caught in the middle of the stresses, anxieties, and mixed-up feelings of being an almost-adult and trying to figure out money and life and debt, and as a church we enter a sermon series about finances called "Balanced." I hope that it spoke to others as much as it spoke to me.
The week that I thought it was impossible I could graduate college debt-free (what had I been thinking to set that goal for myself, right? No one does that!), I was lovingly reminded by God through the pulpit that debt is never spoken of in a positive way in Scripture. God is to be my only master, but when you are in debt, you have another master. No, thank you. I'll stick with my original conviction: no debt, no other master. (Even if I have to wait.)
The week that I was feeling stingy, overwhelmed, and under-accomplished, I was lovingly reminded by God through the pulpit that I am to be rich towards Him first (with everything: time, money, efforts) and then He will take care of the rest.
Matthew 6:33 reminds me to seek first His Kingdom and Righteousness, and all of the other things will be added as well. (And I know I can trust Him to know which "other things" need to be added.)
Another thing He told me? College is a gift, it's not life. College does not equal life, no matter what society says. College is a gift, just as much as marriage or children or a job is a gift. You can't "earn" it or "deserve" it... God gives it, or He doesn't. And I am okay with either result.
The amazing thing about serving God? He's creative. There is no cookie-cutter-mold for raising children, learning to drive, OR future success. And I am glad He's creative, and I want to join Him wherever He is working creatively.
Because, "There's no better place to be than in the center of God's will... unless it's in His presence." (~"Last Flight Out", one of my favorite movies!)
So I say no more. No more anxiety in place of His peace, no more worry in place of His grace-filled plan, no more rushing ahead before I hear Him whisper "Go".
Because Life is a Gift.
Reflect on it.