... and it's true...
Because I am almost grown up. (17 now... less than a year until I am an adult, forever... that's almost grown up, right?)
The joke is kind of true: I am almost-grown up, and when you are a compulsive-saver, you don't spend much. And it makes you feel poor! ;) I have three dollars to spend right now, and I just can't decide how I want to spend it.
A seasonal-only pumpkin chai spice latte at Starbucks sounds REALLY good! But I should probably try to find a pair of jeans at a thrift shop for some specific senior pictures that I want. OR, there is always a meal or dessert out with a friend! Or perhaps the gas money to go out with a friend!
Just so many decisions! :)
All of those are trivial though, when put into eternal perspective. When we are truly making soul-deep decisions, I think the choice is clearly marked for us, as we walk hand-in-hand and heartbeat-in-heartbeat with our Creator.
Our Creator, and enjoy His beautiful Creation. Below is what I call Creation Photography, and I'd say it's pretty good for a dinosaur phone like mine! As for dirt-poor, well, when you have the early shift at work and you get to drive in this glory, you feel like the richest person on earth:
He's quiet, going about his work steadily. He knows his purpose, his plan.
... Sometimes I envy his decision-less life.
That's what I feel like right now.
I set a goal, one that seemed very reachable last year. But as the months slip by, the reality closes in, the alarm rings at 5:50am... it seems hard. Too Hard.
But is it really? Really too hard?
Or am I still too soft?
By God's grace, I'll make it. I'll be dirt-poor (but not really, compared), and love the simplicity of life. Because when you don't have Money To Spend, you don't have Stuff To Manage. (http://www.aholyexperience.com/2014/09/when-youre-tired-of-being-a-stuff-manager-want-to-enjoy-living/) And when you don't have Stuff To Manage, you don't have Things to Worry About. And a worry-free life is a Free Life. A Simple Life.
My dream? Go to college.
Then live in the middle of no where,
where you can breathe or shout or pray or run with just you and God for as far as you can see. Where yellow beems shoot across golden fields, and trees turn red and yellow. I love Indiana, and it's Simple-ness.